Current mood:	giddy
Current music:	"Silhouettes" Smile Empty Soul

The Word of the Day is excitement
we're required to dress up at school a lot. any time we have to give a presentation or anything like that you might be lucky enough to see me in my lovely garb. so last week I had to dress up for something...I can't remember what. all I remember is that while I was driving to school that day I felt important. I was getting on the highway from harrison in my nice car, in my nice clothes, with the window cracked just a little, sunglasses on, sun shining bright all around. I felt grown up, like I was actually doing something worth doing with my life. granted, I was only giving a presentation, but I pictured it being myself in four years or so when I'm driving to work some morning. I don't know, it was cool. it was just nice to feel that way.

and I've been feeling upbeat lately too. I don't know why, nothing in my life has changed drastically. I have more responsibilities though. maybe it's knowing I can screw things up with people, but they can be fixed. perhaps.

and today I saw this magazine from jcpenney's sitting out on the counter so I picked it up and looked through it. it's a jewelry magazine, mind you. so I'm flipping through it and omgosh I want to buy so much of it. I actually think I'm going to spend around $130-140. the rings are so pretty and I'm an easy target for pretty jewelry. but they're good deals. anyways, I won a lot of money at a bingo a couple of months ago and I still haven't spent it. like literally it's up in my room on my desk. so I gave some of the money to my mom, I'm going to help my dad out with buying a new grill, and I'm going to splurge and spend the rest on me. crazy notion I say. plus I won a mystery shopper friday night (go me!) so there's another fifty dollars. I do have to pay off a two hundred dollar fee to uc (my bad), so that'll pretty much get rid of that money. oh well, I'm excited. I like jewelry. a lot. I'm actually looking at it now and getting all happy.

summer is so right around the corner that it isn't even funny. my mom was looking at a house for us to get for summer vacation and of course that's something to get pumped for. I can't wait for fripp island. school is almost done for the quarter. I'm almost done with my third year of college....and just think, that's halfway done with college. I'M SO CLOSE TO BEING DONE WITH SCHOOL FOREVER. and then I can just work. Ryan is starting his rotations for school very soon and I'm so excited for him. I was asking him if he was excited and he was like 'oh yeah I'm excited about paying money to work forty hours a week and not get paid blah blah' and I was like shut up, you're so close to being done that it's unreal. don't get me wrong, I'll complain like it's my job when I'm in his position....but so close! he's done with sitting through classes. omgosh it's so great. I can just see myself in his position. MASS EXCITEMENT! I can't wait to graduate and have a big party and live in an apartment somewhere. oh my goodness. I hope that you guys are as excited about the future as I am. it doesn't have to be a job, just be excited for what's coming. seriously we're going to be awesome in ten years. I've decided that we'll all be married and have jobs (whatever job you feel fit) and have the kind of family we want.

seriously, get excited.